Right Now- Caroline Totty

Right now, in this very moment there is a boy somewhere trying to kill himself.  He is constantly pressured by his family and friends to be the best he can be, but their best is unattainable for him. He feels alone. He feels like an outsider who will never be good enough, or maybe he is good enough and that's why he feels alone. He is the head jock of the school and everyone loves him, but he feels as if he has no true friends. He doesn't know what a real relationship is like. He's tired of all the pressure put on him to win every single game for his team. Or maybe it's a brainiac with only a few close friends, and all he dreams about is being the popular jock with everyone wrapped around his finger. He's tired of feeling like a nobody. As these late night thoughts swallow this boy, wherever he might be, he comes to a conclusion. He feels like world would not suffer without him. He feels as if it would even be a better place without him. He writes a note to his parents telling them it's not their fault and that he loves them. It takes courage for him to swallow those pills or to kick the chair out from underneath him, but right now, in this very moment, a kid is struggling with that decision, whether they should swallow those pills or kick the chair. As I lay in bed typing this blog, there is a person somewhere trying to kill themselves.