I never had to choose my subject - Kate Sommer

Fears-losing my best friend, bullies, people finding out secrets, college

Annoyances-when people leave empty things in the fridge/pantry,

Songs stuck in my head, arrogantly ignorant people

Accomplishments-distinguished player on clarinet, stay true to myself 

Confusions-treatment of mental illness 

Sorrows-self image/consciousness, relationship with parts of family 

Dreams-meeting favorite band, traveling, staying close with my best friend

Idiosyncrasies-music and art obsessed, go to bed/sleep late 

Risks-being more of an extrovert/putting myself out there more

Beloved possessions, now and then-friendships(now), books and dolls (then)

Problems-time organization, liking myself more that I currently do

I'm going to elaborate on my fear of losing my best friend, because there's more than the normal reasons why this might happen. It's a given that there's the possibility that when we go to college we'll grow apart and stop talking to each other and that's a huge fear of mine. She's the person I can talk to about absolutely everything: from silly school crushes to serious life decisions. I don't think I could lose that part of my life and be changed towards the negative. Another way I fear of losing my best friend is if one day we got in a fight and started hating each other. I'm afraid of this but only because we know so much about each other that we could ruin each other's lives if we wanted to. 

The most terrifying way I could lose my best friend is that she had depression, anxiety, and has attempted suicide twice. I know, this entry just got super serious, but it's true and it's a terrifying truth. You never know how much you appreciate your friends until they're on the brink of being gone. I hope to god none of you ever have to go through that and I hope and pray everyday that she's actually getting better and she's telling me the truth and she's not going to attempt again. Because as cheesy as it sounds, if she died I think a part of myself would die with her.